I still love you and I'm praying

“Things change. And friends leave. Life doesn't stop for anybody.” 

                                                 ― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Life has become super busy right now and I feel like a lot is changing. Yes, I should have gotten married a lot sooner, but unfortunately this is our time. My fiancé and I are extremely busy. I'm moving out of my apartment into our new condo, I'm blessed to have parents help us with the financial aspect, but it's still tough. We are still working on small wedding details (it's stressing me out to my limit). My work schedule is crazy, it always has been. I unfortunately don't have anymore days to take off and I work weekends. My wedding shower is less than 4 weeks away. And even though this should be the happiest time of my life, I feel like I'm letting people down. I guess I shouldn't feel this way...but I do. And I'm sorry, if you feel like I'm letting you down. But honestly I just can't be there for you, the way I'd like to. I just can't lay down everything and come and see you, I just can't. You should know this breaks my heart. 

I still love you. 

“please believe that things are good with me, and even when they're not, they will be soon enough. And i will always believe the same about you.” 
― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower