4 more days....It's wedding week.

I haven't written in a while, mostly because I've become too busy to write anything down and we didn't have internet for a month.

Time has flown by and we are now 4 days out. I cannot believe it! Where has the time gone? I cannot believe that in 4 short days, I will marry the guy I fell in love with over 3 and half years ago. God is good.

I've realized over the past few days how much I truly love this man I'm about to marry. Yes, we give each other a hard time, but we aren't like most couples. I'm so glad for that. We aren't mushy/gushy, we're sarcastically in love. I wouldn't trade him for anything.

I keep trying to imagine what it will be like when I walk down the isle...will I cry like an idiot (probably, because I'm the most emotional drama queen around town, I hide it well right??) Will I laugh and wave at people who've come to share this day with us, will I pass out from how tired I am, will I be shaking because I'm so nervous to see my handsome future husband...I think I can answer yes to all of these. But then again, I still can't imagine it.

There have been great moments and bad moments...times when I laughed til I cried, and just moments where I cried. But, I am so ready to be there on that day....Please pray for me, my stress level will be at its highest point in the next few days.

Dave assures me the weather will be nice....

The only part missing is having my grandparents there. From the day I started planning this wedding I have incorporated them into this day. I wanted to have it in the fall because I loved going to Clintwood and walking in the woods with my granny and granddad during this time. I loved making piles of leaves and jumping in them. I loved bone fires with my dads family when I was younger (my cousins scaring my sister and I as they hid in the woods making indian sounds). My mamaw's birthday is in September, she would have loved Corey so much! She would have given him dozens of hugs and sat with him for hours just talking (And he would have listened because he's so patient). She would have payed him a dollar to dance with her to her favorite country/gospel song. And these are the things I miss the most. I miss them so much. I just hope God lets them look down from heaven for a few minutes. (that would be great)

On Saturday, I will walk down the isle with 4 small picture frames attached to my bouquet. (Pictures of my grandparents) I will wear my mamaw's gold tennis bracelet, my granny's hair clip, my moms pearl earrings and necklace,the border of my veil is lace from my mom's veil and on my right hand I will wear Corey's granny's ring, that he gave me when he knew I was the right one. For something blue, I'm wearing my Cowboy boots and praying that I don't fall down.

I can't thank everyone on here (mostly because I'm horrible with names) but thank you to each and every one of you, who have helped me in this process. (I'm still trying to buy stamps for all the thank you notes)

4 days people, 4 days! Get excited, I know I am!! And one more day of work, hopefully i won't fall asleep running cameras tomorrow.

"Find rest, oh my soul, in God alone. My hope comes from him." - Psalms 62:5

(Please disregard the misspellings and the grammatical errors. It's late and I'm tired)

Love always,
Callie Marie

The exciting life of Callie Marie.

So I haven't made this official on any other social media site, but I had to write about it on here. And since I've noticed only a certain handful of you read my blog, I could get away with it.

Life has been oober busy, let me tell you:

Corey and I signed our lease on our new condo. I move in next wednesday and he moves in, in September. We are both super excited! It's also pretty stressful moving and cleaning two apartments. I definitely wish I had a robot to do all this work.

It's also hard because I hardly get to see Corey. Sure, we work together, but in two different departments. Our schedules are all mixed up, people are leaving, people are getting new jobs...

Oh and speaking of new jobs....this girl right here received the job she has been working her butt off to get. Thanks for all the prayers and Facebook support and encouragement!! I'm pretty pumped about it, and also a little scared. But the guy who taught me most of it, reassures me I'll be okay. He's definitely just being nice. :)

So, starting this weekend, I will be the director for the weekend mornings.....it seriously doesn't feel real. I have been training for about 6 months. (And dreaming about directing even longer) Training my body to get up at 4am, and let me tell ya, I'm not a morning person, but it hasn't been that bad. Training how to multi-task (punching, giving cues, looking at 5 different monitors, looking ahead to what's next).

But props to the guy who put up with me for 6 months. He was very patient, and helpful, and I'm pretty sure I got on his nerves a lot. But I definitely couldn't have gotten to where I am now, without him. I'm kinda sad that we can't tag team the morning show anymore. I'm pretty sure he's stoked to get away from me though!

So there's that, please continue the encouragement and prayers as I make this switch! But Thank God for his many blessings.

Switching the subject, wedding plans are slowly coming together. We're definitely on the last leg. I'm not that excited anymore, I've heard that happens. Wait let me rephrase that, I'm not excited about the wedding planning....but becoming Mrs. Presley, yes I am definitely excited about that part. At this point, I think Cor and I are more excited about the honeymoon and before your mind wonders somewhere else, we're excited about going to Jamaica, and I'm excited about swimming with the dolphins! :)

"This blog was thrown together and critiquing my sentence structure isn't necessary!"

"Find rest oh my soul, in God alone. My hope comes from him" - Psalms 62:5

Love always,
Callie Marie

I still love you and I'm praying

“Things change. And friends leave. Life doesn't stop for anybody.” 

                                                 ― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Life has become super busy right now and I feel like a lot is changing. Yes, I should have gotten married a lot sooner, but unfortunately this is our time. My fiancé and I are extremely busy. I'm moving out of my apartment into our new condo, I'm blessed to have parents help us with the financial aspect, but it's still tough. We are still working on small wedding details (it's stressing me out to my limit). My work schedule is crazy, it always has been. I unfortunately don't have anymore days to take off and I work weekends. My wedding shower is less than 4 weeks away. And even though this should be the happiest time of my life, I feel like I'm letting people down. I guess I shouldn't feel this way...but I do. And I'm sorry, if you feel like I'm letting you down. But honestly I just can't be there for you, the way I'd like to. I just can't lay down everything and come and see you, I just can't. You should know this breaks my heart. 

I still love you. 

“please believe that things are good with me, and even when they're not, they will be soon enough. And i will always believe the same about you.” 
― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Awkward conversations and wedding planning!

Today was a good day. The best part about all of it, I didn't get rained on once, while I was outside.

This morning we went to get passports (for the second time....take two) This time with success...I felt like I was in Argo when I had to swear that the information was correct. I was so nervous (I mean of course everything was true), but my imagination goes crazy sometimes and I think of the worse possible events that could happen. The government would tap into my phone line just to get the scoop of my life for the next 3 months until we head to Jamaica (no wait, they already do that) Okay, or the FBI knocks down my door because my drivers license address doesn't match my current address. (I know, over exaggerated) So we got that taken care, big relief, now I know Jamaica will be a reality.

I also got to spend part of the day with my mom. We did a lot more wedding things today. We basically looked down every isle in Hobby Lobby. I would also like to share with you a comment that my mom made...
Mom: How far away is the airport from blountville?
Me: about 20-30 minutes..
Mom: And what times does your flight leave?
Me: 7:40am
Mom: Well you definitely won't be able to stay up late the night of the wedding....(gives me this awkward look), ya know ya can't stay up late watching NCIS or anything....
Me: UGH!! (I yell this) Awkward conversations in Hobby Lobby!!

I also found giant puzzle pieces which I'm excited about (shhh..it's a secret as to what I'm using them for)

My mom has been a great help in this wedding planning process, I couldn't do it without her! Thanks mom!!

Later tonight, Cor and I went to look at a house. I really thought it was a great looking house with the pictures they provided online. Unfortunately, there weren't enough rights, and a lot of wrongs! So, we're still looking, I know that God will provide. It was also the first place we looked at. Corey also pointed out that he felt like a hobbit with the low ceilings. Thanks for all the prayers on this situation.

And then to end the night, I got to talk to my cousin Maura! I had tried to get in touch with her all day to ask her if she would help out with my wedding. She said yes and sounded very excited! She also informed that she could make cranberry sauce or stuffing and bring it or she had a lot of great cake recipes. She also ask if I had a wedding dress and told me she designed outfits and that she'd bring her notebook for me to look at, at the wedding. (I remember when a couple friends and I would draw dresses with flames, and other odd designs on them (I understand now that with my "flaming dress", I could have been the top designer for the "Hunger Games", always pursue your dreams, kids)

Needless to say, I'm exhausted!! Now, I'm trying to relax with my pup, while we wait for Corey to get home!

Welp that's about all I've gotta say!

"Find rest, oh my soul, in God alone. My hope comes from him" Psalms 62:5

Love always,
Callie Marie

Prayers appreciated!!

As most of you know I've been sitting in and learning how to direct for over half a year. The hours have been rough, doing splits on Saturday and Sunday (I didn't have to go in, but it was the only way, if I wanted to direct) I had to get up at 4am just to make it to the station at 5:30 and get ready for the show at 7. I've had a lot of help from the director in the morning, who has always been super patient with me!

I just learned two days ago that one of our production guys is leaving and if the morning director takes his job, I'll get his directors job! I'm super excited and nervous about the whole ordeal, but I'm asking for lots of prayers that I'm able to get this job. It would absolutely be a dream. I've worked so hard to reach this goal and I believe God knows the desires of my heart. So please say a little prayer for me this week and the next as these changes take place. (I'm not even sure if I'll get it, but I just needed to throw the idea out there)

Tomorrow will be a busy day. Cor and I are going to get passports and then more wedding ring shopping! Every things slowly coming together. Cor is also going to look at a house for us (also pray that if this is what God wants, he'll provide)

Can I just say that I cannot wait to get married, at this point the planning is just getting frustrating! (Girls if you're getting married, just get married, don't wait a long time to do so) I also cannot wait to move into a house. (more space and more decorating) AND I cannot wait to go to Jamaica!

I'm still having issues with the music for the wedding, if anyone has any suggestions, I would appreciate it. I want live music and I've ask a couple people to play but maybe a band or a group of people that wouldn't charge a lot might be easier. I would really like a violinist or a fiddler. Ideas, Ideas, Ideas.....

So that's basically all for now....

"Find rest, oh my soul, in God alone. My hope comes from him" - Psalms 62:5

Love always,
Callie Marie

Marriage Counseling for the comedic soul....

So today I received our marriage counseling book in the mail, to start reading with Corey, so that when we meet with our pastor (norman), we'll be up to speed with this whole process.

Corey and I began tonight by reading chapter 1, which explained what marriage is, through God's point of view: what love is, what a covenant commitment is, what visions we have for our marriage, etc.

Now if you know Corey at all, you know he's always cracking some sort of joke, or saying anything to get someone to laugh. He's like that all the time, it's not just out in public. (that's one of the many reasons why I love him)

Now, lets start with how our conversations went through Chapter 1.

The book ask us to give our definition of a covenant commitment. I told Corey that I was terrible at giving my own definition and his response, "Just write something." So.....here are our answers.

Definitions of a Covenant Commitment:

Me: Staying true and honest with you (Corey), loving, forgiving, listening and something...

Corey: A holy promise. One you can't break...or you'll fall in a pit of three headed poisonous snakes.

The book also wrote, "Just for Fun"..."What is one question you would ask God?"

Me: If he still loved me (because of all the mistakes I've made)

Corey: God do you eat food? (Which he followed with...) I mean cause if he doesn't, than how did he know what chicken tasted like and is that why everything taste like chicken because he got tired of making everything taste different.....(yeah)

Also under the "Just for Fun" section was "What's one story in the bible you would have wanted to see?"

Me: David and Goliath, or Jesus walking on water, or Jesus turning water into wine...

Corey: Ya know that story where there was a big storm...(and I'm thinking, oh when Jesus calmed the storm, that'd be cool..) and like that guy was on the boat, I don't remember his name...and then like God was like throw him over board because he had done all that bad stuff, and so they did. Yeah, I would have liked to have been there for that conversation.

Me: Do you know what the guys name was? (I'm laughing, hysterically by the way)

Corey: Jonas?

Me: Close... Jonah

Corey: Oh yeah Jonah cause he got swallowed by that whale, I know that from guitar hero. (proceeds to pick up his phone and find the song)

Needless to say it was definitely a fun night discussing a Godly marriage...

I can't wait to read the other chapters.

"Find rest oh my soul, in God alone. My hope comes from him." Psalms 62:5

Love,
Callie Marie

The Fog

I hoped tonight that the fog would swallow me whole...
that it would spit me out into a world unknown, but to my dismay, I only found myself trapped.
and that is my feeling, at the time being.
I've felt heart break, I've felt let downs, I've felt hell.
My body so weak that I could almost tell, that apart of me was ready to leave.
Leave a moment in my life that wasn't going the way I wanted it to,
because running away is much better than trying to be the knight in shinning armor, but behind that armor a scared little girl.
And who's to blame, but me.
I've tried yelling and screaming, I've tried patience, I've tried silence..
that doesn't resolve to anything except the feeling of immaturity.
But aren't we all in a sense of the word immature, we do things we regret,
and I've got too many of those to count...
I hoped tonight that the fog would swallow me whole...
all I found was a lost soul, behind to huge brown eyes..
and a lot of bad luck to go around.
So settle down into the life, that isn't perfect, isn't fine, isn't fair..
take up that god awful armor to hide whats really there.
A scared little girl, who hates the fact that life is much better under metal plates,
where she doesn't have to face reality..
I hoped tonight that the fog would swallow me whole...